Showing posts with label fate. Show all posts
Showing posts with label fate. Show all posts

Monday, June 11

Turn My Days into Letters

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Dear you,

Ours was not how most love stories start. Not with cuckoos singing and the spring breeze blowing fragrant petals on our faces or to be more realistic, not with stolen glances, secret smiles and covert phone calls in the middle of the night; instead, in a gloomy depressing place.

You had found the broken me -the scrap that time had made me into, way beyond the state of recycling. You took me in like a collector takes in, with cautious excitement a priceless antique piece. You dusted, mended and brought back my shine. You made me yours and worth much more than I ever thought I was.

I thought to thank you I would write you a love story.
(Since this world is clearly can no longer sustain a real one)

I wrote something grand and beautiful;
Something that the heart aches for and yet knows to be unreal.
With a lovelorn hero and his beloved,
With all the odds against them.
But all the odds are fought and all the demons slain.
And they make theirs a happily ever after.

You read, appreciated but insisted that we live it instead. So began our ‘Once upon a time…’.

Next, I thought I’d write you a love letter.
(Since the spoken word doesn’t always come out the 'write' way)

I wrote something out of the deepest corners of my heart.
It read beautifully and brought tears in my own eyes.
With poignant poetic words and noble intention promised,
The scented letter lay by your side as you slept.

You read, appreciated and carried on with your day. Disappointed and gloomy eyed, I went on with my day. It is only before I almost found myself asleep at night that I realised that you don’t write me letters you just simply make each day a new love letter for me.

Sincerely,
Living our story,
Me

Wednesday, April 20

mea máxima culpa

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It rained today. A lot. I sat in my room and got to thinking about the things I've done and the things I plan to do in the years ahead. Suddenly my thoughts were clouded by a memory, which now seems very distant, almost as if it never happened.

I killed Nadia Joseph. Calling the authorities will be pointless. They won't find anything. I've spent years thinking over every detail.

I can still see it vividly-  breathing her last few, painful, breaths. Her eyes look so un-Nadia- like. Cold, dim, fixed on a distant vision of the forgotten past-on a regret.


We were seven when we first met- Nadia and I. I knew then that one day she would die and that it would be me who would kill her. Her family had moved in into the next apartment. I was on the swing trying to touch the leaves of the low branch hanging over the swing with my feet.  Nadia, wearing a yellow bib dress and flip flops runs down with her locks flowing like a cape behind her. Without a word, she grabs my arm, pulls me off the swing, sits on the swing and swings higher and higher in a mysterious bliss, which I was not a part of. I stared at her, dumbfounded. She tossed back her hair, flashed the first of many gorgeous smiles I’d learn to loathe, and went higher with her toes stretched to touch the wet leaves I had set my eyes on.


I began to plot her death.  I thought it noble and poetic to use my own bare hands, the very ones she grabbed that day and fixed the venue in the park by the swing. It was months later when I actually made an attempt. It was late evening and we were playing in the park. She was excitedly talking about the presents she got for her birthday last night. I could not bear the ring in her voice, the aura around her and that wretched incredible smile. 



Without much conscious efforts, I pushed her hard from the back. She fell, face down. I ran quickly and smothered her face harder into the soil. Her socked feet  flailing, and hands trying to grab on to something- maybe to life- encouraged me. A few moments passed, she went limp. I turned her around. She lay there with her dress muddy and her face smeared with dirt.  I cleaned her face. It was beautiful. Ran my fingers over her brows and kissed her forehead.


I could have sworn she smiled.



Sunday, April 10

Value added Services

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Dear The One,
I haven't met you yet; or maybe I have and  am unaware. This is to let you know that you are being thought of very fondly this moment.

Sincerely, Me
Image credit: Aby Abraham

p.s: shared with Monkey Man as a Sunday 160.
Like to text? Say what you want to in 160 characters, including spaces.
If you're brave enough
give it a go - it's not as easy as it looks!

Monday, March 14

The Castle of Crossed Destinies

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Wayanad, Kerela
 (I know)

Wings, I gave up
To hide in the web 
Which keeps me tangled, sad, content.

*
(Therefore I am)


We walked tipsy, intoxicated, mildly happy
Exchanged numbers, smiles, a few dance moves and secrets.
Betraying the web, seething to strangle the last smiles out of the beautiful slurring lips.


*

p.s.: 1)This Post is being written for THE POETRY CONTEST at Blogjunta.com as a part of WOMEN & BLOGGING month
2)shared with Haiku Heights prompt #34
3) A special thanks to the photographer, Naveen for the beautiful picture. 

Monday, February 22

A pathetic rhyme on a pathetic moment in life.

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What is real? I gave up the search.
Is it the breeze the fan makes
Or the pictures of you sitting on the perch;

The glow-in-the-dark stars that hang from my ceiling
(why are they to me still unknown)
The flowers that Winnie the Pooh holds
Mom's smiling face blinking on my phone?

Are you - even the I that speaks-

("you have  such beautiful EyEs!")
real enough to be touched;
Touched, reached, moved?
Are you the- Aye sir, I quote-
"drunken vainglorious lout"
No, you are the one spitting words off of an unwashed mouth!

I - an Oedipus now- ran away but closer to my fate
The same one, yes sir that very one,
the one I had once so easily  tamed.
The clock ticks, nothing seems to change anymore
except the fading emotions-unsmiling-
refuse to even feel sore.

Thus lies a pathetic rhyme on a pathetic moment in life
Is a naught now what had been once a rife.