Urgency in Life

You know those people who are good at being old? Some people do it so effortlessly.
I, on the other hand, don't know how to take care of myself.
I forget to take my medicines when I have a bad fever.
I forget the dietary restrictions.
I indulge way too much in the things I like but are not good for me.

I guess, somewhere deep down,
I don't care about live long and grow old.

I guess, this is why I walk around with this life-must-happen-now look which puzzles people.